Wander

I missed the train,
I missed the the buses
I missed my early morning paper
Reading with a cup of coffee by my side.

I missed the Saviour,
I missed the love
I mistook it in my self righteousness
"I don't need Him, I'm good".

But even the capital H
Shows He hadn't given up on me yet
For the mindset,
It was still there

A Christian once,
A Christian forever?
Read the scriptures and your eyes will open
Hold on to those words like water in a desert.

Never dismiss them from your mind
So that when the oppurtunity arises
You can find the sayings in your head
And recite them as they're meant to be said

Full of passion and desire.

I missed the trains,
Out in the pouring rain
A broken soul was on the floor
With chest flung wide open.

Don't let this be you
Do as you should do
And the The Lord will lead
Till paths end and Heaven approaches.

What to Feel?

I don't know what to feel,

Cause I'm a little bit sad,

A little bit happy

And even kinda discouraged.

Emotions just walk all over

My heart and trample it.

Confused feelings

Whiz and whir all around.

This isn't about a young love,

Though so sweet and childish it may be.

No, this is just life.

I have a happy experience

But I'm not joyous?

I'm afraid I don't understand...

But one thing I do understand,

Is that I don't really need to worry.

It could all wither away

As flowers in the winter,

Such a brown dead thing

But yet elegant and precious all the same.

These feelings can whip me around

In the winds of the Lost

Or I could not let them.

It probably sounds really petty and simple

And kinda foolish.

It's not though, and it's so comforting.

As worries fall off me like my dad's suit jacket

{or was that when I was young?}

I turn to the Saviour.

I guess all the emotion has caught me

Empty handed, vulnerable and fragile.

Now that I bring God in,

You'll leave.

You liked the words about things

You can relate to,

But God doesn't relate to you right?

Just keep on scrolling I guess,

And what I do will be for naught.

It makes you uncomfortable

When I talk about He who loves me,

But why?

Just right now,

Here in my words with me

Could you try to see

This experience the way I do?

You don't have to believe,

Or even think much about it

But won't a moment be spared

To show you cared

Enough to read this for me?

Not even for me.

For you;

Meaning that God could touch you.

{woah, there He is again}

Don't run away

Please.

Now.

As the disarray of my thoughts rises,

I drop it

And pray to God that He would save me.

That He would save me from everything.

From the little things too

Helping me through

Each test, conversation with a friend,

Bike ride to the store

And so much more.

He'll answer if I wait for Him.

So won't you wait for Him too?

Can't the voices inside our heads

Be governed by something other

Than sinful lust and naked emotions?

God can cleanse you

If you really want Him to.

I Could be A Little Bit Warmer

Winter's here
And I could be a little bit warmer.
Could you nuke that Hot Chocolate,
It's gotten cold.
Oh, the thermostat if you would.

I could cut myself down
But would that fix the problem?
Honestly, does my writing do anything for you?
Regardless here I sit
Complaining about my privileges.

I was going to write about the merry holidays,
So that I shall.
Christ the child
Came down that night
Amidst the fight

Between humans
To be the best
To pass their tests.
In mediocre surroundings;
He was born in poverty.

But the son of God
Loved all
Even when we fell
And in such blindness
Hung Him high,

Feeling justified in the shadow of the cross
On which He took the loss
Of life for children He loved so dearly.
He loves you.
He knows you,

He knows your struggles,
Each shortcoming
But also each lovely thing about you.
I hope through His unyielding compassion
I can live right

So each person I greet,
Will be impacted with that meet
And know also that God still lives.
In the snow and storm
His love is borne.

I want you to know,
All of you
That this comes very sincerely from me.
Each line is another beat of my heart,
Another lifeline from me to the world.

All of this is what it is
So for now I will leave it as it is
And write another time,
In another place
Maybe better describing this season of love.

Bright Lights

I'm tired, I'm worn
But I'm not here to say I'm unhappy,
The opposite really
But it wouldn't be bad
If time would take a second
For me to collect my thoughts
Before the morn.

Each sunrise
Greets me with lights,
Bright lights
Hurting my blurry vision
Making the sheets so inviting
That I might fall back asleep
And dream dreams so deep

Of cars and trains
Merry breezes and saddened rains.
Poetry is enjoyable
Poetry is fun
It's a kind of outlet
That in no other way can be met.
I'm tired, I'm worn

But I cannot act forlorn.
I reminisce nothing,
For my world was made anew
I see through new eyes
Something revolutionary on the rise.

Angular Expansion

So. This is way different than the pictures I usually take. It was pretty fun to make as angles are really cool! I guess I'm becoming a bit of a Photoshop Nerd. :D

HoME Assigment

A compilation of 5 different pictures, at home, that make me who I am.

1: Computer! This thing is my favorite. I've created pictures here, and maybe some gaming. Maybe a lot of gaming...

2: Rabbit; his name is Elmer! Pets are the best! (I'm not sure he enjoyed the camera in his face...)

3: Volleyball. This sport is my passion, and I'd love to go to a college through it! Picture titled, "Go Time".

4: Poetry - Poetry is a really big thing for me. As a Christian, I believe I'm called to speak of God. What better way then through the smooth pencil strokes of unending stanzas?

5: Family! They've shaped me; molded me, and I can't be more thankful for the adoption of an orphan 13 years ago (who was me). It's been fun so far, and there's so much more to come.

Boosting Contrast & Color Assignment

Fun how different filters and such, that seem so complicated, can be so simple and effective! This was done with the Luminosity Mask!

Aperture Assignment

Here is a comparison, between different apertures. This display is meant to show how aperture settings can affect a picture's Depth of Field!

(Click to enlarge!)

Fake Snow Assignment

Can you tell, can you tell? It's pretty tricky, I know.